Being a celebrity is a really tough life. Asides from the fact that they are faced with regular problems and issues like other people, they also have to face problems heightened by their fame and careers. It’s no wonder why some of these celebrities have and face cases of addiction, health issues, and other related things because there is so much pressure, and so much work and they need a way to cope.
At the Ellen DeGeneres Show, Demi Lovato for the first time, spoke in detail about her drug overdose case in 2018, and also about her battle and struggles with an eating disorder.
At the show, she opened up about what led to her drug overdose case in July 2018; she associates her relapse to the over-controlling nature of her old team. She had been on six-year sobriety and had broken it just three months before the overdose case started in 2018.
She said: I have to preface it with the fact that I got sober at 19. So I got sober at an age where I wasn’t even legally allowed to drink. I got the help that I needed at the time and I took on the approach of a one size fits all solution, which is sobriety, just sobriety. And so my whole team took that approach and we did it. And we ran with it, and it worked for a long time.
But I realized that over time as the things with the eating disorder were getting worse, I mean, over the years it got progressively worse and worse with people checking what my orders at Starbucks were on my bank statements. Just little things like that led me to being really, really unhappy. My bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed. And so I was stuck in this unhappy position. Here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, “I’m six years sober, but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?'”
And I sent a message out, and I reached out to the people that were on my team, and they responded with like, “You’re being very selfish. This would ruin things for not just you but for us as well.” And when I heard that, my core issues are abandonment from my birth father as a child. He was an addict, an alcoholic; like we had to leave him. And I have vivid memories of him leaving so when they left, they totally played on that fear, and I felt completely abandoned so I drank. That night I went to a party and there was other stuff there and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD.
She also spoke about her struggles with her eating disorder which got heightened by her old team that was fond of controlling every food she ate, and which she invariably says contributed to her abuse of drugs too. She explained the manner in which her old team controlled all she ate and also spoke about the evident difference between her situation with her former controlling team and the new team she has now.
She said: If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone out of the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service. Or if there was fruit in my room they would take it out because that was extra sugar. We’re not talking about brownies and cookies and candies and stuff like that, it was fruit. And for many years, I didn’t even have a birthday cake. I had a watermelon cake, where you cut your watermelon into the shape of a cake and you put fat free whipped cream on top and that was your cake. And so for years I did that and it kind of became this ongoing joke. But I just really wanted a birthday cake, so this year when I turned 27, you know, I have a new team, and Scooter Braun, my manager, gave me the best birthday cake. And I spent it with Ariana Grande, who is one of my good friends, and we just had the best birthday and I just remember crying because I was finally eating cake with a manager that didn’t need anything from me and that loved me for who I am and supported my journey. I think at some point it becomes dangerous to try to control someone’s food when they’re in recovery from an eating disorder.
Now according to her she is at peace and happy with herself. In the interview, she emphasized how it was entirely her choices that led her to recover and how those choices also helped her recover and feel bold enough to share her story with others and hope that their choices too will lead them to recover. She said: And you know, ultimately, I made the decisions that got me to where I am today. It was my actions that put me in the position that I’m in. And I think it’s important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home or you in the audience or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it. You can get to the other side and it may be bumpy, but you are a 10 out of 10, like don’t forget it. And as long as you take the responsibility you can move past it and learn to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved.
To her, she says she knew she was being controlled and pulled by many forces, which aided in expanding her eating disorder and bringing in more problems for her. But now, she feels better and free and she hopes others can also attain the peace she feels and feel it too.